working to receive...

okay, so... church this morning was.... interesting...

feeling confused at the moment, frustrated, uncertain...

they thanked our family for the example we've been over the years... I hope everyone had their eyes closed during that moment of prayer... I'm pretty sure my face would have betrayed me at that moment... lots of pastor's kid frustration buried in that word "example"....

working to receive the other things they prayed, beautiful, sincere, thankful things... feeling like they're getting lost in the conflicted stuff having to do with my feelings having to do with being a pastor's kid, with resentment over being made an example for so many years...