Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 81

Today's Daily 5:

1. Waking up in time to catch the necessary bus, but not having to rush to do it
2. Skype with L in the UK
3. Apples and string cheese
4. a text message regarding chocolate that totally made me grin
5. another sunny day - not something to take for granted in Canada in November
6. finishing two different books today while reading on the bus
7. The perfect timing of the arrival of a kid's book (to be blogged about soon!) that a friend had insisted that I not only needed to read, I needed to own.  When it came today, it turned out to be perfect for the lesson I was in charge of leading at house church tonight!
8. Iced Passion Tea Lemonade from Starbucks
9. Having an option other than tuna casserole (which is what mom made) for dinner
10. gathering with loving friends at house church tonight

A Growing Confidence

I'm sitting on the bus writing this. For the fifth time in six days I hopped on a bus that takes about three hours to make a complete circuit, and spend time reading, thinking and praying. I'm grateful that I have the time and space in my life to do that right now.

My thoughts are quieter right now, and mostly not for public consumption. All the reading has been helpful.

I'm still living in limbo on so many fronts, but this week I am somehow managing to be more at peace with that. To live in that place and do more than simply exist.

I'm dreaming again - looking forward. Knowing in a way that somehow defies words that even if things don't work out as I hope and long and pray for them to, I'll be okay. More than okay, actually.

I'm being made new. Made whole. I'm walking out the journey of healing that I celebrated earlier this week, the journey that has spanned the last five years, in new ways. In ways that are deep and defy public explanation.

There is a deep and growing confidence within me that I am worthy, and that I am loved.

And that, I think, is a pretty special place to be living.