Daily 5 - Day 76

Today's Daily 5:

1. A better day than yesterday
2. getting the time I need for my doctor's appointment on Friday off work without any trouble
3. sorting through photos from my trip
4. maybe finally having the problems with my utility company sorted out
5. simple leftovers of a hamburger for dinner
   

I Loved This...

For a wide variety of reasons, it's been almost a year since I've read a novel. Partly because I needed to fast from the escapist tendencies I was using fiction for, and partly for a number of other reasons. But, if/when Claudia Mair Burney releases a new novel, I'll likely break that fast and read it. (Her book, Wounded, was the last novel I read, late last fall, and I loved it, and was profoundly touched by it, like every other one of her novels that I've read.)

In any case, I follow her blog, Ragamuffin Diva, and I loved the most recent post there, The Canticle of the Lamb. It spoke to some of the raw and wounded bits of my heart this morning, and brought just that touch of hope that was badly needed.

Tuesday. Start Again.

I'm feeling minutely restored over yesterday.

An afternoon of sleeping, and a night where I was in bed relatively early (for me anyway) helped a bit.

Focusing on other things is helping too, I guess.

There are big things going on around me and in me, and, to be honest, I'm not quite sure that I know what to do with any of it, and I definitely haven't been coping well.

I'm seeing my doctor later this week to discuss a number of concerns, among them my sleeping issues. I'm expecting to get lectured, because, while the sleep problems have definitely become more of an issue in the last two years, I've been dealing with them for probably about 15 years, quietly, without ever mentioning them, since they were usually sporadic and relatively manageable. I'm also expecting an argument about sleeping meds, since at the moment I'm taking a natural supplement that seems to be allowing me to sleep in increasing amounts, and I'm not crazy about the addictive qualities of prescription sleeping meds.

Sleep is only one of several issues I'll be chatting with my doctor about, in the hopes that if I can deal with some of the physical health issues, I'll be better equipped and have the energy to deal with the emotional and spiritual issues.

So. It's Tuesday. And I'm starting again. Let's just call yesterday a false start to the week.

Today is going better, if for no other reason than I wasn't in tears three times before 10:30 a.m.

I had a cup of passion tea this morning.

I don't have to cook dinner tonight.

I'm considering the purchase of U2 tickets for next summer, to fulfill an item on my "things to do before I die" list.

All of these are smile list type items today.

Some of them are a little bit weak and pathetic, but hey, when joy is hard to come by, I'm going to take it even in weak and pathetic doses.

And be thankful for starting over. I needed that today.