The End of a Balancing Act?

I feel like I’ve been walking this bizarre tightrope/balancing act in a whole bunch of arenas of my life for a very long time now.

The line between honoring God and honoring my parents.

The line between the intellectual and the experiential.

The line between the world I grew up in, and the world I find myself a part of.

The line between individualism and community.

I’m tired of the balancing. I never have liked middle ground – too exposed – being shot at from both sides. I’m wondering what would happen if I just let myself fall? What if I just picked a side, and tumbled off the tightrope? Can I do that? I don’t know if I can keep up the balancing act much longer…