Quoting Clive Staples

I am reading a series of novels that are stunning in their simply told tales of small town life. But, that's not what this post is about. That piece of information was simply to set up the fact that in one of the novels, I recently came across a quote from C.S. Lewis that aptly describes the way that I have been experiencing life and God lately. So, without further ado, Lewis once wrote:

We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.

This has been a difficult couple of weeks. My depression has taken a downturn, has affected my eating and sleeping habits, and my general ability to cope with daily life. I continue to believe in God's sovereignty in my life, though I find myself growing ever more distant from that place of close personal relationship with Him. I find myself wondering with Lewis just how painful God's will in my life is going to be.