Juxtaposed

I spent a chunk of the evening unexpectedly with various family members tonight.

I'd made plans to go to my parents house after work, so that they could give me a ride to the mechanic to pick up George. I ended up staying for dinner, and then borrowing my dad's SUV to make a trip to Ikea to buy a bed frame and some under-bed storage so that I can really make a good attempt at settling in in our new house.

I'm feeling the juxtaposition tonight of being deeply thankful for my family (they've been immensely good to me always, but especially through the stress of the last couple of weeks), and also deeply missing some people who are very much the "family of my heart".

It's a weird sort of feeling, this inbetween juxtaposition. Kind of lonely. I feel my heart pulling back a little, waiting, and wondering if it is seen, if it is safe, or if it is simply exposed.

And so I'm waiting here, in the midst of a juxtaposition of thoughts. So thankful for family, and yet deeply longing for family, all at once.

Mid-Afternoon

Tensions remain fairly high in the office today, though thankfully not nearly as high as they were on Tuesday, before the holiday.

I'm still left wondering if we'll make it to the end of Friday with our staff intact.

I'm thankful that the vast majority of it is not directly affecting me right now.

And I'm thankful for plans for a quiet evening off at home tonight. Likely only the tiniest bit of unpacking. A stop to pick up George from the mechanic. Comfort food (some combination of chicken fingers and leftovers most likely.) And plans to pamper myself a bit - painting my fingernails and toenails in preparation for the wedding I'm attending this weekend.

And with that, I'm off to finish up the sorts of tasks that must be done by the end of the day!

If we are the body

I woke this morning with this song playing through my thoughts, over and over...

If we are the body...