Restored Perspective?

I am generally experiencing a sense of relief at the moment.

While I am still concerned, and wrestling with a number of the issues I mentioned in yesterday's post, I am feeling a sense of renewal, and (perhaps the best word would be) eased perspective.

Church today was not a complete washout. I had the chance to chat with some of the girls, to simply giggle inappropriately at all the wrong moments with them, and to enjoy their company. I sat with a number of them during church.

I came home and took a nap on the couch while watching curling on television with my dad (does it make me weirdly Canadian that I actually ENJOY watching curling?).

We had a meeting with the youth leadership team tonight. It consists of the pastor and I, and three kids from the group in whom we've identified leadership potential, and already existing roles of leadership within the group of young people that we work with. Together, the five of us plan the events, and evaluate the things we do as a group. It helped me to hear their perspective. They saw things quite differently from me in some ways, and it helped me to see the positives of the group of young people we work with through their eyes. It helped me to hear the things they're excited about, and the ideas they presented for ways we could better meet needs.

I feel a bit relieved.

It's not even 8:00pm. and I'm already wearing my pyjamas. This is indicative of the level of exhaustion I've been feeling lately. Tomorrow is another day of Lenten fasting for me, and back to the extreme busyness of my job these days. So, for the rest of the evening, my plan is to hide out, to watch some TV, maybe do a little reading, send a couple of emails, maybe do some crocheting, and just generally breathe and relax, and prepare my mind and heart for the week to come.