Wits End

It's been a while since I've talked about my journey with my body, and that's mostly because I've found myself at wits end.

Life got busy and my motivation to work at caring for my body dropped off.

I gained back all the weight I'd lost at the beginning of the year, and the beginning of this journey, and then I added a bit of extra weight.

I'm at a place where I look in the mirror and feel unhappy with what I see, but also recognize that what I see is largely a result of choices I've made.

And can I be honest? I'm not that motivated to change my habits.  I like eating sweet things and having the occasional glass of wine or cocktail.  I like not worrying about what I eat.  I don't like exercise - never have.  Yoga classes are the only thing I've ever really enjoyed, and I just don't have time to fit classes into my schedule at the moment.

I have some thoughts on how to change that, but for the moment, I'm at an all time low in motivation and an all time high in frustration.

In fact, even as I try to write this post, I find I've run out of things to say.  I'm stuck, a bit at wits end, and not totally motivated to change any of that.

I'm pretty sure I'm not the first to find myself in this place, and I'm wondering how those of you who have been here have navigated this space?

Whimsical Wednesday, July 18, 2012

It's a random blend here again this week, but I'm smiling because of these images.

As always I'd love to hear if one of these images stands out to you and why.

Source: thanksimadeitblog.com via Lisa on Pinterest

Source: veggiebelly.com via Lisa on Pinterest

Source: indulgy.com via Lisa on Pinterest

Source: fbcdn-sphotos-a.akamaihd.net via Lisa on Pinterest

Daily 5 - Year 3, Day 330

Today's Daily 5:

1. Finding ways to laugh about some terrible dreams from last night
2. an interesting and challenging debrief conversation
3. a long shower
4. settling into my room to read and do some catching up for the evening
5. a very early bedtime

Tuesday Anticipations, July 17, 2012

This week I'm anticipating:

• several evenings with nothing scheduled
• hanging out with friends at house church
• baby cuddles
• a very low key weekend
• knocking another paper deadline off of my countdown to the end of the semester

What are you looking forward to this week?

Daily 5 - Year 3, Day 329

Today's Daily 5:

1. a day doing home visits with a really great nurse (and getting to hold two super cute babies)
2. trying out a new kind of rental car
3. having a vehicle with which to do grocery shopping
4. comfy summer pajamas
5. curling up for a quiet evening at home