I'm running around the office (well, not so much just at this moment!) getting the last few things in order. I think we're finally ready.
In twenty minutes I'll shut down my computer, lock the building, and head for the mountains and a conference with 330 Mennonites.
I have one specific prayer request: pray that I am able to eat at the banquet tonight. I've been having stomach problems again this week, and am concerned about my ability to consume food. I'm not too worried about the rest of the meals on the weekend, but it creates an awkward social and professional situation to attend a banquet, be seated at a table with VIP guests, and not be able to eat.
It will be an interesting weekend. Lots of memories relating to things I've struggled with this year attached to past conferences, so the memories are always strong.
AND
I have the first half of a few Mennonite jokes for you... I couldn't resist!
Answers when I get home, or if I get a chance to get to the blog before I come home.
Leave your guesses in the comments!
What is the shortest book in the world?
Why don't Mennonite women wear sleeveless dresses?
How many Mennonites does it take to change a lightbulb?
What do you call a Mennonite poet?
Friday, April 03, 2009
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Bizarre week
This has been a bit of a bizarre week.
On the work front.
On the personal front.
On the emotional and spiritual fronts.
On the health front.
I really don't have words for it.
Because of that, in combination with the work conference I have this weekend, it'll likely be quieter around here for a bit. I'm leaning towards sharing bits and pieces of other people's thoughts, while I work to sort out my own thoughts.
I ran around the office today like a crazy person, pulling together nearly all of the last minute details for a conference my company is hosting this weekend. 200 delegate packages, and a hundred spouse and guest packages took shape today, and I'm thankful for those who pitched in to make that happen.
In the midst of that I also had a long and very honest conversation with my boss. It will be interesting to see how some things play out in the coming weeks.
I have a few hours in the office tomorrow morning before heading to the mountains for the conference. A few last minute things to get done, then an hour and a half or so of driving.
And then? Then I'll be spending the next two days or so at a five star hotel in the mountains. With 330 or so Mennonites. Should be an adventure!
On the work front.
On the personal front.
On the emotional and spiritual fronts.
On the health front.
I really don't have words for it.
Because of that, in combination with the work conference I have this weekend, it'll likely be quieter around here for a bit. I'm leaning towards sharing bits and pieces of other people's thoughts, while I work to sort out my own thoughts.
I ran around the office today like a crazy person, pulling together nearly all of the last minute details for a conference my company is hosting this weekend. 200 delegate packages, and a hundred spouse and guest packages took shape today, and I'm thankful for those who pitched in to make that happen.
In the midst of that I also had a long and very honest conversation with my boss. It will be interesting to see how some things play out in the coming weeks.
I have a few hours in the office tomorrow morning before heading to the mountains for the conference. A few last minute things to get done, then an hour and a half or so of driving.
And then? Then I'll be spending the next two days or so at a five star hotel in the mountains. With 330 or so Mennonites. Should be an adventure!
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
The Place of Softening (1 Samuel 23)
The passage heading reads "David Hides in the Wilderness".
Saul is chasing him. He fears for his life. The previous chapters tell us that Saul has been afflicted by a tormenting spirit that filled him with depression and fear. (A spirit that the scriptures say was sent by the Lord - because that concept doesn't raise a whole other slew of questions. But that's a different post....) Saul is jealous and angry - out for David's head, and David is staying one step ahead of imminent death only because "God didn't let Saul find him."
David is wandering and hiding in the hilly wilderness of Ziph.
I once heard a sermon on this passage in which the pastor told us that the word Ziph means "place of softening" in the Hebrew. I've never been able to confirm that, but it has stayed with me, working at moments in my heart.
It came back to me just now, as I find myself again wrestling with my thoughts, having a conversation with a dear friend about pain and numbness, about feeling things deeply.
But the image it brought with it this time wasn't the usual idea of a gentle softening - like pouring sweet smelling liquid into the load of laundry, and having fragrant, fluffy towels emerge at the other end.
The image was one of meat being tenderized, softened. Have you seen a meat tenderizer? A small, harsh metal mallet, it's face covered in protruding spikes. And you don't use it gently. You pound with it. Slamming it over and over into the meat with a force that thins and softens. A force that may ultimately produce a tasty result, but is violent and harsh at moments in its application
There is no question in my mind that the wilderness seasons in my life have often been "places of softening." And, while gentle isn't exactly the word I'd use, those seasons have rarely been as harsh as the one I find myself in just presently.
I pray that it truly will be a place of softening. That the result will be beautiful. I can certainly feel the blows.
I am thankful, at least, for this: The NIV translates verse 16, "And Saul's son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God."
In the midst of the wilderness, the son of the one who seeks his death, comes to David to "help him find strength in God." In that, at least, there is something hinting at hope.
There have been those moments, though few, and brief, where I have been shored up by friends who have found me in the wilderness. Friends who have helped me to see God again, amidst the turmoil. And for those moments I am deeply thankful.
And there is something challenging, too, in that friendship, that trust. David was running for his life, and yet he allowed his location to be revealed to the son of his sworn enemy. He chose to trust the relationship more than the strength of the evil spirits that had so overtaken Saul.
These days I find it difficult to trust in even the most intimate of relationships. I'm not sure how I would handle it if in the midst of the brokenness, in the midst of feeling as if I'm running for my very life, for the ability to be who Jesus has made me, a close relation of the "enemy" sought my friendship. I don't know that my heart would be open, even at the prompting of God, to allow them in enough to bring renewed strength and faith.
I am challenged by David tonight. By this "place of softening" in the presence of those from the enemy's camp.
Saul is chasing him. He fears for his life. The previous chapters tell us that Saul has been afflicted by a tormenting spirit that filled him with depression and fear. (A spirit that the scriptures say was sent by the Lord - because that concept doesn't raise a whole other slew of questions. But that's a different post....) Saul is jealous and angry - out for David's head, and David is staying one step ahead of imminent death only because "God didn't let Saul find him."
David is wandering and hiding in the hilly wilderness of Ziph.
I once heard a sermon on this passage in which the pastor told us that the word Ziph means "place of softening" in the Hebrew. I've never been able to confirm that, but it has stayed with me, working at moments in my heart.
It came back to me just now, as I find myself again wrestling with my thoughts, having a conversation with a dear friend about pain and numbness, about feeling things deeply.
But the image it brought with it this time wasn't the usual idea of a gentle softening - like pouring sweet smelling liquid into the load of laundry, and having fragrant, fluffy towels emerge at the other end.
The image was one of meat being tenderized, softened. Have you seen a meat tenderizer? A small, harsh metal mallet, it's face covered in protruding spikes. And you don't use it gently. You pound with it. Slamming it over and over into the meat with a force that thins and softens. A force that may ultimately produce a tasty result, but is violent and harsh at moments in its application
There is no question in my mind that the wilderness seasons in my life have often been "places of softening." And, while gentle isn't exactly the word I'd use, those seasons have rarely been as harsh as the one I find myself in just presently.
I pray that it truly will be a place of softening. That the result will be beautiful. I can certainly feel the blows.
I am thankful, at least, for this: The NIV translates verse 16, "And Saul's son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God."
In the midst of the wilderness, the son of the one who seeks his death, comes to David to "help him find strength in God." In that, at least, there is something hinting at hope.
There have been those moments, though few, and brief, where I have been shored up by friends who have found me in the wilderness. Friends who have helped me to see God again, amidst the turmoil. And for those moments I am deeply thankful.
And there is something challenging, too, in that friendship, that trust. David was running for his life, and yet he allowed his location to be revealed to the son of his sworn enemy. He chose to trust the relationship more than the strength of the evil spirits that had so overtaken Saul.
These days I find it difficult to trust in even the most intimate of relationships. I'm not sure how I would handle it if in the midst of the brokenness, in the midst of feeling as if I'm running for my very life, for the ability to be who Jesus has made me, a close relation of the "enemy" sought my friendship. I don't know that my heart would be open, even at the prompting of God, to allow them in enough to bring renewed strength and faith.
I am challenged by David tonight. By this "place of softening" in the presence of those from the enemy's camp.
April Fools?
It's a new month.
It's also the day famous for practical jokes. Not being a huge fan of the practical joke, I was reflecting this morning on two memories from April Fool's that don't involve jokes.
There was the day many, many years ago (not even sure how many now) when April Fool's also fell on Good Friday, and our family received a phone call telling us that some dear friends were about to have a long desired baby. The trouble was, the baby was coming about 4 weeks early, and because it was April 1st, it took the poor dad to be (who also had a reputation for enjoying a good joke) quite some time to convince my mom that his wife was in fact, in labor. It was an odd mix - the remembering of Good Friday's suffering, with the anticipation of welcoming a special little guy into the world. Many things have happened in the years since that day, and our two families have become disconnected, but I don't think I'll ever forget the emotions of waiting for that little guy to enter the world.
And, a year ago tonight, I received an email from a friend on the other side of the country. A happy email. She wrote something to the effect of, "Shh. We haven't told many people yet, but thought since we'd chatted about our relationship in Malta that you should be among the first to know. P. proposed to me tonight, and he assures me that it wasn't an April Fool's Joke!" I had the privilege of attending their wedding in Newfoundland last fall.
I'm needing some happy memories today.
It's a new month.
The first quarter of the new year is now past, the "newness" of the year is wearing off, and it hasn't brought with it any of the things I'd hoped for or expected.
And, it snowed again overnight.
So, this morning I'm focusing on happy memories, and praying for the coming of new things, the restoration of hope, and the arrival of spring - physically and metaphorically.
It's also the day famous for practical jokes. Not being a huge fan of the practical joke, I was reflecting this morning on two memories from April Fool's that don't involve jokes.
There was the day many, many years ago (not even sure how many now) when April Fool's also fell on Good Friday, and our family received a phone call telling us that some dear friends were about to have a long desired baby. The trouble was, the baby was coming about 4 weeks early, and because it was April 1st, it took the poor dad to be (who also had a reputation for enjoying a good joke) quite some time to convince my mom that his wife was in fact, in labor. It was an odd mix - the remembering of Good Friday's suffering, with the anticipation of welcoming a special little guy into the world. Many things have happened in the years since that day, and our two families have become disconnected, but I don't think I'll ever forget the emotions of waiting for that little guy to enter the world.
And, a year ago tonight, I received an email from a friend on the other side of the country. A happy email. She wrote something to the effect of, "Shh. We haven't told many people yet, but thought since we'd chatted about our relationship in Malta that you should be among the first to know. P. proposed to me tonight, and he assures me that it wasn't an April Fool's Joke!" I had the privilege of attending their wedding in Newfoundland last fall.
I'm needing some happy memories today.
It's a new month.
The first quarter of the new year is now past, the "newness" of the year is wearing off, and it hasn't brought with it any of the things I'd hoped for or expected.
And, it snowed again overnight.
So, this morning I'm focusing on happy memories, and praying for the coming of new things, the restoration of hope, and the arrival of spring - physically and metaphorically.
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