This link brought a slight smile to my face.
And this article encouraged my heart a little. To at least keep picking myself up and pressing in.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Tired
Overnight a minor flare-up of "I'm tired of all the crap-itis" turned into a full blown case.
I'm tired of the many, many curve balls that life has thrown my way this last while.
I'm tired of the the politics and the maneuvering and the bending of morals and standards in my place of employment. There hasn't even been a recent influx of those things. Just a build-up of long term exhaustion.
I'm tired of relationships that have to be carefully managed.
I'm tired of living (well, it feels like hiding sometimes) in the basement at Grandma's.
I'm tired of trying to come up with ways to smile and laugh at all the ridiculous things that life has thrown at me in the last few months.
I'm tired of feeling like I have to pretend.
I'm tired of being around people (my grandma especially) where I have to carefully watch every word I say.
To be honest, I'm not sure I'll post this, or, if I do, that I'll leave it up.
It's not the choosing differently attitude that I'm trying to embrace these days.
It's more of a wallowing.
And I'll be honest in saying that life circumstances are definitely making this choosing joy and choosing life thing a lot more challenging at the moment.
I'm weary.
I'm even tired of myself.
I'm tired of the many, many curve balls that life has thrown my way this last while.
I'm tired of the the politics and the maneuvering and the bending of morals and standards in my place of employment. There hasn't even been a recent influx of those things. Just a build-up of long term exhaustion.
I'm tired of relationships that have to be carefully managed.
I'm tired of living (well, it feels like hiding sometimes) in the basement at Grandma's.
I'm tired of trying to come up with ways to smile and laugh at all the ridiculous things that life has thrown at me in the last few months.
I'm tired of feeling like I have to pretend.
I'm tired of being around people (my grandma especially) where I have to carefully watch every word I say.
To be honest, I'm not sure I'll post this, or, if I do, that I'll leave it up.
It's not the choosing differently attitude that I'm trying to embrace these days.
It's more of a wallowing.
And I'll be honest in saying that life circumstances are definitely making this choosing joy and choosing life thing a lot more challenging at the moment.
I'm weary.
I'm even tired of myself.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Daily 5 - Day 270
Today's Daily 5:
- 270 days of Daily 5 Lists
- Had a treatment tonight with one of my natural health practitioners
- Editing photos for the slideshow
- A hug from and chat with my mom
- Finished an audio book today (Committed).
Coming Soon...
Have you seen this video yet? It's been popping up on blogs all over the place for the last week or so, and I finally stopped to watch it this morning. Too funny...
"Sunday's Coming" Movie Trailer from North Point Media on Vimeo.
House of Motherhood
I read this post on Kelle's blog in the wee hours of Sunday morning, after returning from a bachelorette party, and preparing for sleep, while thinking ahead to celebrating my own mom later in that day.
House of Motherhood. The post made me smile and laugh and cry, just a little. It's very worth the read.
House of Motherhood. The post made me smile and laugh and cry, just a little. It's very worth the read.
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