Sunday, October 03, 2010

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 49

Today's Daily 5:

This was a day that contained some particularly challenging news about my already challenging housing situation.  News that I will talk about once some details have been disclosed.  In the meantime, these are the things about the day that really were good things.
  1. Almond Joy for breakfast (life has been a little crazy, and I'm going through the stash I brought back from California with me quicker than anticipated.  that might mean I need to make another trip!)
  2. Enjoying worship at dad's church
  3. lots of compliments on the very pretty scarf from Morocco that I was wearing today
  4. greeting an out of town relative that I particularly enjoy spending time with at the airport
  5. walking in the park with mom and our relative for an hour or so.  while it wasn't the ocean, it was nice to walk near water and enjoy happy conversation and fall colors
  6. getting a ride home tonight

A Few Post Melancholy Thoughts

I...
  • am wearing a favorite cute blazer, a scarf from Morocco, and very cute shoes in an effort to shake the early morning melancholy
  • ate an almond joy and a scone for breakfast
  • have earrings stuck in my ears that I can't get out.  I was going to change them, but can't get them out at the momen.
  • am off to church and then the airport.

Sunday Morning Again

The last Sunday morning that I was laying in bed with my laptop on top of me, blogging, I was in California.

I'm having, in some ways, at least, another of those early mornings. 

This time I'm in bed at mom and dad's (I stayed here last night.).

I've been awake since 6.  My body seems to refuse to be asleep for longer than 4-6 hours at a time, and since I made the effort to go to bed earlier last night than I have been, I woke early.

And then laid here, wishing I was still sleeping.  Knowing my body could really use those extra couple of hours of sleep.

It's another of those (relatively rare in my life) Sunday's where I'm actually going to go to church.

To be honest, I'll probably go to church and, when the time comes where I'm supposed to be paying attention to the sermon, I'll likely pull out my journal so it looks like I'm taking notes, and just spend some time writing.  Is that horrible?  I've been using that ruse at a whole variety of churches for years.

I have an hour and a half or so to roll out of bed, dress for the day, eat something, and join mom on the way out the door.

I'm having early morning pondering and moments of frustration.

I'm reflecting on the irony of the fact that after a week in which I saw more close friends in person than I have in ages (and even managed to talk on the phone or skype with three of the closest who are far away), I'm feeling lonely.

I'm thinking about the things that the week to come will hold.

Time with family from out of town.

Hopefully connecting with a friend to get some important information I've been waiting on.

Is it shallow that one of the things I'm really looking forward to is catching the newest episode of The Amazing Race?

The week needs to hold time spent sending off some resumes.

And time spent quiet, and alone, writing and reading and praying.

It will hold one of my favorite house church events - the week that happens every month or two where we gather and cook and eat together, setting aside any agenda for the evening other than sharing food and enjoying each other's company.

So I lay here in bed, with a TV by internet show playing quietly in the background, and I'm working to shake off the early morning fears and melancholy.  I'll get up and smile and laugh.  I'll make the choice to enjoy the people I'm spending the day with.  I'll go to church and worship.

(And I'll wish, just for a second, that I was still laying in bed in California, and that when I got to church I was going to be greeted by a dear friend, and that there would be palm trees outdoors along the way!)