Sunday, January 15, 2006

Heart Connect

I was caught by this post that Kirk made. I've never met Kirk, although we are part of the same church community, but I've been greatly challenged and encouraged by him and his blog this last while. This post, particularly caught me when I read it this afternoon, and again as I reread it tonight.

My heart has been taking blind leaps the last while, and sometimes it takes quite a while for the rest of my to catch up. It was my heart (and God's voice in it) that led me to this place of caring for a friend in crisis. It is my heart that is being affected by the wounds in my life, and the healing that God is bringing slowly.

And my tendency has always been to use my mind. But it hasn't been much use the last while, other than in the practical details of situations. It's left me extremely off balance - but in a good way I think.

And it is in the heart that connection with God and others occurs.

I have to laugh. I've been struggling with my church lately. That's nothing new - I wrote about it the other day. So I went tonight, not expecting much, and God blessed me exceedingly. I had two different truly fantastic conversations, where I was able to share a number of the things that God has done in the past months, the challenges of the moment in both my life and my friends' lives, and I was encouraged by both of these women. I don't know if either of them read this blog, but Deb - thanks for giving me the outlet to share my journey, and thanks for praying with me. And Kari, thanks for listening - for encouraging me to keep walking. This feels like such a weird journey right now, and I've felt very alone in the last couple weeks - very unsupported and uncertain, but these two women managed to draw my story out in such a way that I not only shared it with them, but was reminded myself of God's presence in all of this.

Heart connect is a beautiful thing, and I'm bubbling over with excitement and joy because it happened twice in one night, on a night when I was expecting nothing!