Thursday, July 27, 2006

Prayin' my way through today

I've spent quite a few chunks of time talking to God today. I had a job interview this morning that brought me face to face with a bit of the reality of the new opportunity that has arisen. The job will be impossible for me to accept because of the opportunity. Tried to call the friend who I'm considering this with, but she wasn't around, so I left a message.

I sat down at the bus stop and began to wonder if I'd been mistaking God for an adrenaline rush. Thankfully I had my journal in my purse, so I used the half-hour I had waiting for the bus, the bus trip, and the second bus trip (after the transfer) to journal and pray. I'd already been talking to God this morning, asking for His guidance, asking that the perfect opportunity would present itself in the case of my work situation. But I was caught off guard by the little dose of reality that came.

Then, I prayed my way through the walk to the next job interview (this one seems more promising) and my way through the walk home.

All that praying and here are my conclusions. I think this really is an opportunity from God. I think I'm going to continue moving forward as if the opportunity is definitely going to become a reality. I need to talk with my parents about the opportunity tonight or tomorrow. If I don't tell them soon, I'll back myself into a corner by telling evasive lies in answer to their questions about the job interviews I had today, and I don't want to lie about this.

That said, pray for me please as I tell my parents. Although my friend and I see God's fingerprints all over this crazy opportunity for our lives, I'm not so convinced that my practical, rational, religious parents will see the same. And I am a bit afraid to share this new thing with them, lest is be squashed in me, or lest it increase the tension in our home for the months until the opportunity can come to fruition.

And now, I'm off to pray my way through a shift at the Bay - one of the only ways to make an evening at the store worthwhile!