- A tasty hamburger at a pub for dinner
- "real" hugs from a couple of good friends
- laughter even when I was really too tired to properly emotionally engage
- That Jesus loves us deeply, even in our really broken spaces, and being reminded of that today
- feeling Jesus speak, and knowing that he is changing things in me even amidst the really hard stuff.
Monday, October 05, 2009
Daily 5 - Day 55
Today's daily 5:
rattled...
I'm feeling pretty spent right now.
A bit hurt and angry, and in need of a session venting. My blog is definitely not the place for that today.
I've had some pretty unfair and hurtful labels and accusations thrown my way today.
It's been a long time, maybe never, since I've stood truly alone (in human terms anyway... bearing in mind that Jesus is with me) on an issue.
I'm feeling rattled, struggling a bit to concentrate, and I'm tempted to say more here than I'm certain is appropriate.
So I think I'll stop now.
I'm having tea with a long time friend after work tonight. Perhaps I'll vent a bit to her. Or maybe I'll save the venting for my journal, and just collect a hug and some laughter from her. Because I could use both today.
A bit hurt and angry, and in need of a session venting. My blog is definitely not the place for that today.
I've had some pretty unfair and hurtful labels and accusations thrown my way today.
It's been a long time, maybe never, since I've stood truly alone (in human terms anyway... bearing in mind that Jesus is with me) on an issue.
I'm feeling rattled, struggling a bit to concentrate, and I'm tempted to say more here than I'm certain is appropriate.
So I think I'll stop now.
I'm having tea with a long time friend after work tonight. Perhaps I'll vent a bit to her. Or maybe I'll save the venting for my journal, and just collect a hug and some laughter from her. Because I could use both today.
So...
I've had a bit of a crazy day thus far.
I did manage to get a bit of sleep. But I dreamt wildly, deeply, intensely all night long. Strong and disturbing images, leading me to pray and think and wait and wonder.
I had a long and serious conversation with my boss this morning as well. About the issues I was wrestling with on Friday and Saturday. I'm not sure yet if I'll say much more about how that conversation went. Except to say that I am both disappointed in the outcome, but completely unsurprised. I'm still praying about taking one further step. I pray that it was a conversation where I used my words to point rather than chop. I think it was, though I'm fairly certain that was not how it was received.
There have been ravens flying past my window every few minutes this morning. Perching where I can see them. There are often birds, but rarely ravens. The ravens are oddly encouraging this morning.
And with that, I have much to accomplish, and less time than usual to do it in this week, so I'd better get at it.
I did manage to get a bit of sleep. But I dreamt wildly, deeply, intensely all night long. Strong and disturbing images, leading me to pray and think and wait and wonder.
I had a long and serious conversation with my boss this morning as well. About the issues I was wrestling with on Friday and Saturday. I'm not sure yet if I'll say much more about how that conversation went. Except to say that I am both disappointed in the outcome, but completely unsurprised. I'm still praying about taking one further step. I pray that it was a conversation where I used my words to point rather than chop. I think it was, though I'm fairly certain that was not how it was received.
There have been ravens flying past my window every few minutes this morning. Perching where I can see them. There are often birds, but rarely ravens. The ravens are oddly encouraging this morning.
And with that, I have much to accomplish, and less time than usual to do it in this week, so I'd better get at it.
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