Sunday, November 08, 2009

Really Not Okay

I'm really struggling this morning.

One of those days when it feels like the whole world is crashing in, banging at the door, waiting to list your failures.

And yes, I know, I'm not a failure. I know that's a lie. But this morning, I feel like one. This morning I'm having a really hard time pushing that away.

So, I'm going out for a while. Because the thought of being at home by myself is just too much to bear right now. If I'm around people, I can, just temporarily, push the other stuff aside. I'll deal with it later. But right now, right in this moment, I can't face it. So I'm going out.

2 comments:

Susan said...

Do what you have to do to take care of yourself. Taking some time for "YOU" sounds like a fabulous plan.

Tea said...

I know that feeling too well. Praying that God gives you help through the day.