Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 313

Today's Daily 5:

1. Another morning where I could allow myself to fall back asleep after waking painfully early and catch a bit of extra rest
2. discovering that expected company was not in fact coming
3. finishing the fairly large task of weeding the entire garden (today I worked for several hours while listening to an audio book.  it was a lovely solitary way to spend the afternoon)
4. a hot shower after hours of cleaning and gardening, and the feeling of lovely lavender scented body butter on dry tired skin
5. crawling into a bed with freshly washed sheets, smelling of fabric softener, and wearing freshly washed pajamas smelling the same

Quiet

Today is a day for quiet.

For cleaning, and for prayer.

For lifting some deep needs I've been made aware of to Jesus.

For thinking, and maybe journaling.

For pondering patterns.

For celebrating the joyful moments as well.

For gardening if it doesn't rain, and reading if it does.

But mostly for cleaning, and for praying.

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 312

Y'all, this is one of those days where making this list is a conscious and harder activity.  It's been a bit of a lethargic day, I haven't been feeling great and spent a lot of the day crashed on the couch.  I totally forgot about keeping a list, and now I'm looking back on the day and figuring out what to list...

Today's Daily 5:

1. Licorice nibs (red, of course - black licorice is GROSS!)
2. strawberries and whipped cream
3. being able to fall back asleep after being up for a while this morning, when I wasn't feeling great
4. laughing at a new reality television program I watched
5. curling up under piles of blankets to doze, read, or watch television, and generally not having to move.

Reverb 11 - June

The June Reverb Prompt is:

What can you let yourself off the hook for?

Hmm... An interesting question to ask half-way through the year.


I think the answer for me is "expectations."


In my year of "heal", I've already talked about the fact that it looks nothing like what I expected.  I think it may be a simpler second half of the year if I release myself from my own expectations and timeline.  If I can simply take the days as they come.  If I can live more peacefully within that space.

I think the other half of that is choosing to release myself from expectations of others - whether they're real, or simply something I perceive and take on myself.  To choose to live freely in my own body, meeting my needs and caring for and loving myself.  To be okay with the things that make me different - the things that make me uniquely me.

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 311

Today's Daily 5:

1. flowy favorite scarf
2. string cheese from Wisconsin
3. the laughter of a child, and the moment he seeks me out at house church each week, grins at me mischievously as he climbs into my lap, looks again, and then swipes at my glasses, grabbing them.  once I've rescued them, he usually tries for the nose ring, finding it fascinating that there is a sparkly jewel in my right nostril.  tonight he tried for my earrings too.  So, I held and cuddled him as I carefully batted his hands away from tugging my jewelry out of the holes in my body it belongs in, and carried on with the conversation, enjoying his little body in my lap.
4. Chinese take out
5. a day with a few moments of self-care, and one that left me with much to ponder