A Few Post Melancholy Thoughts

I...

• am wearing a favorite cute blazer, a scarf from Morocco, and very cute shoes in an effort to shake the early morning melancholy
• ate an almond joy and a scone for breakfast
• have earrings stuck in my ears that I can't get out.  I was going to change them, but can't get them out at the momen.
• am off to church and then the airport.

Sunday Morning Again

The last Sunday morning that I was laying in bed with my laptop on top of me, blogging, I was in California.

I'm having, in some ways, at least, another of those early mornings. 

This time I'm in bed at mom and dad's (I stayed here last night.).

I've been awake since 6.  My body seems to refuse to be asleep for longer than 4-6 hours at a time, and since I made the effort to go to bed earlier last night than I have been, I woke early.

And then laid here, wishing I was still sleeping.  Knowing my body could really use those extra couple of hours of sleep.

It's another of those (relatively rare in my life) Sunday's where I'm actually going to go to church.

To be honest, I'll probably go to church and, when the time comes where I'm supposed to be paying attention to the sermon, I'll likely pull out my journal so it looks like I'm taking notes, and just spend some time writing.  Is that horrible?  I've been using that ruse at a whole variety of churches for years.

I have an hour and a half or so to roll out of bed, dress for the day, eat something, and join mom on the way out the door.

I'm having early morning pondering and moments of frustration.

I'm reflecting on the irony of the fact that after a week in which I saw more close friends in person than I have in ages (and even managed to talk on the phone or skype with three of the closest who are far away), I'm feeling lonely.

I'm thinking about the things that the week to come will hold.

Time with family from out of town.

Hopefully connecting with a friend to get some important information I've been waiting on.

Is it shallow that one of the things I'm really looking forward to is catching the newest episode of The Amazing Race?

The week needs to hold time spent sending off some resumes.

And time spent quiet, and alone, writing and reading and praying.

It will hold one of my favorite house church events - the week that happens every month or two where we gather and cook and eat together, setting aside any agenda for the evening other than sharing food and enjoying each other's company.

So I lay here in bed, with a TV by internet show playing quietly in the background, and I'm working to shake off the early morning fears and melancholy.  I'll get up and smile and laugh.  I'll make the choice to enjoy the people I'm spending the day with.  I'll go to church and worship.

(And I'll wish, just for a second, that I was still laying in bed in California, and that when I got to church I was going to be greeted by a dear friend, and that there would be palm trees outdoors along the way!)

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 48

Today's Daily 5:

1. a night that mostly involved sleep
2. walking through crunchy, fallen leaves.  that crunching noise is indescribable, and definitely one of my favorite parts of fall.
3. Eating a Rice Krispy Square for breakfast
4. the smell of cookies baking
5. filing a government report online that I'd expected to be a hassle requiring a phone call to the government office, and having it go smoothly, without a phone call being needed.
6. wearing a t-shirt that had some painful connotations and realizing that I could just love the shirt, and it didn't need to be about the things it was connected to at one point
7. Venti Iced Passion Tea Lemonade
8. Noticing that the abbreviation for my favorite drink from Starbucks is PTL.  This made me giggle, given my very churchy upbringing, and my current quest to be more joyful and thankful.
9. spending a whole bunch of time working on a project that will likely become a new hobby for a while
10. enjoying a Coco Brooks BBQ chicken pizza for supper

Mid-Day Weekend Thoughts

I'm not sure why I qualify in the title that these are weekend thoughts.  My days all sort of blend together right now, without much to distinguish a weekend from the rest of the week.

I slept a bit late this morning, which was helpful, since I was up rather late last night, thinking through some things after having been out for a good chunk of the day with a friend.  It wasn't the most restful sleep, but any actual sleep (even the kind with odd dreams) is helpful.

I sat at the bus stop and made a list for the day.  A list that it seemed wouldn't be even kind of accomplished once I arrived at mom and dad's and discovered that their internet connection was down.  Thankfully, they managed to get it fixed quickly, and in the meantime, I did the non-internet sorts of things from my list.  Things like cleaning and baking cookies.

I'm hoping this will be one of those rare days where most things on the list for the day are actually accomplished.  It looks like that might actually happen, even with the addition of several items, extra chores to help mom out, but that she's willing to have me do to pay off a bit of money I owe her for some items she picked up for me at a store or two recently.  A few things that I thought would be time consuming or a pain in the butt to accomplish went smoothly and surprised me.  I love when that happens.

I figure it's a pretty good deal, this doing a few chores at mom and dad's in exchange for free food, and the occasional place to crash for a night, and usage of a table or desk most days as I putter around on the internet.  I have to remind myself, sometimes, how good a deal it is, when mom interrupts for the fourth time that hour with some two minute task that must be done.

And with that, I'm going back to my lists of tasks.  I needed to clear my head a little, by writing about the day, and now that that's done, I'm going back to work!

What about rain?

This quiz made me chuckle.  Some of it is true of me, some of it isn't.  I don't handle grey rainy days really well, but I do enjoy the quiet of them.

Rain Makes You Happy

You tend to move slowly, but you still get a lot done. You are steady. You tend to have your head in the clouds. You are a bit absent minded, and you're often lost in your thoughts. You are naturally content and happy. You can adapt to your environment easily. You prefer to be around people who are familiar and trusted. Your best friends are your oldest friends. You find peace when you are able to slow down. When you can just be, your life clarifies itself.

The Rainy Day Test

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