I am one of the fakes...

Thousands
Out of the thousands
who are known
or who want to be known
as poets,
maybe one or two
are genuine
and the rest are fakes,
hanging around the sacred precincts
trying to look like the real thing.
Needless to say
I am one of the fakes,
and this is my story.

I fell in love with this poem, by Leonard Cohen (in Book of Longing) when I first read it. I think I may put it as the facing page/introduction to the first book I ever write.

How beautiful a concept, that even the fakes, the failures, the ones with pretense and the ones without, all of us have a right, and hopefully an inbred desire and ability to tell our story.

I read something on Donald Miller's website just after Christmas, where he was talking about working to tell a better story with his life this year. About living fully and intentionally.

I like that.

I am not (usually) a poet.

I am one of the fakes.
And this is my story.

Reading Material

I'm working my way through a number of books just presently, and have spent the evening reading bits and pieces of all of them, with plans to continue reading, comfortably curled up in bed as soon as I'm done posting.

1. The Motorcycle Diaries by Ernesto "Che" Guevara. Loving this one in much the same way I love the movie, though it is decidedly slower and less strikingly profound than the movie.
2. The Alphabet of Grace by Frederick Buechner. Haven't made it very far in, but am liking what I've read so far. I've liked what I've read by Buechner in the past, and some of my favorite authors quote him quite regularly, so I thought I'd check him out myself.
3. The Book of Longing by Leonard Cohen. I confess to mostly skim reading this one. Poetry is always more difficult for me to read, and this is full of rather strongly erotic poetry that I'm skipping quite liberally. However, there are a few gems in there too!

There are others waiting in the wings, partially read, some skimmed, and ready for in depth persusal. Can I just say that I love books, and that I'm grateful for close proximity to a good library. All three of the above are library books. Which is decidedly easier on my pocketbook than purchasing!

Some Changes

Since I've finally managed the switch, I also took the time to make some changes. Most significantly, I've updated my list of people and things I like. If you're still not on the list, it doesn't mean I don't like you, it just means I don't know where to find you!

Finally Switched Successfully

I have finally accomplished a successful switch from Old blogger to New Blogger. With no thanks from blogger support, I might add. I emailed them several times, and got nothing but a form letter response, telling me they were busy, providing help links, and a note that said you should reply to their form email if the help links didn't solve your problem. They don't answer you when you reply to their email either. I finally had to give up on my original google account and make a new one, which ultimately allowed me to finally switch.

So, I'll be back either later tonight, or tomorrow sometime with new blogging

Still Not Working Properly... But I'm Thinking!

I have had a really hard time writing anything of substance for quite a while now. I manage the occasional blog post, and once in a while I type a journal entry, or hand write some thoughts in a journal. But mostly, I've felt unable to write anything worth considering for more than about three seconds.



There are two possible reasons I see for this.



The first is that I have been wanting for quite some time now to be out of Calgary, and am waiting for the pieces to fall into place for that to be possible. I find Calgary hard to breathe in these days, and for me, the ability to draw deep, spiritual breaths is closely tied to the creative processes necessary to write.



The second thing niggles every once in a while at the back of my mind. "What if I can't write anymore because I was healed from depression? What if everything interesting that I had to say was a result of the depression?"



These are the things I'm thinking about.



I'm off to finish planning the girls Bible study for tomorrow afternoon - that and take a hot bath with a good novel.



If blogger ever gets fixed, and solves my problem, I'll get back to posting regularly!

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