It looks like I'm going to be offered a job on Friday morning. The woman told me she would have hired me today, except that I need to make more than what her initial offer is, and she needs to do some checking on the finances and interview a couple more people before she makes a decision.
The trouble is this - it would not be an office job. It would have somewhat limited people interaction, but it would be something I would be skilled at doing, and could possibly enjoy doing for a while. I would get to work with hundreds of books, sorting and so on, on a daily basis. It would also pay a dollar an hour less than what I've been using as my minimum hourly wage in the job search. That's approximately $2000 less/year. After three months I'd have some pretty good benefits as well.
I don't know how to make the decision... It's not perfect, but nothing is, and nothing is seeming to pan out at the moment. I really do need to find a job soon, but I don't want to just jump at the first one that's offered to me... How do you know if God is providing something or not? How does it become clear when He is leading? And how do you decide if you can live on a certain wage when you are guesstimating what expenses like rent, car insurance, gas, utilities and so on will be?
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Early Ending to an Evening...
So I just got home from driving a friend home from my place. She decided to check out house church with me for the first time tonight, since I was hosting it, leading the discussion, and it wasn't as far north as it normally is. Which would have been great, except that she was the only person who showed up! So we caught up on each other's lives, watched part of a movie, and I drove her home, because her health is fragile and doesn't permit late nights.
So much for the discussion topic I'd prepared to lead us into sharing and praying. Oh well, maybe next time? Maybe I'll write up the topic and stick it up here for discussion sometime this week...
As to the week, the rest of it looks like it will be quite busy. I'm working the next several days in a row. I'm also meeting a friend on Thursday morning to catch up on each other's lives, and I have a job interview tomorrow morning. To be honest, I don't think I'm interested in the job because it doesn't pay enough, but the work sounds okay, so I thought I'd at least meet with the lady and try to get a bit better feel for the job. And I guess I'll use Friday afternoon to send out more resumes...
I had my first "driving standard" lesson yesterday. Megs is teaching me so I can drive at least part of the way on the road trip we're taking at the end of September. We spent the evening together, at a friend's birthday, and then having coffee, talking, and driving. We ended the evening by praying together. We've decided we need to do that consistently. We're always up to date on each other's lives, and we pray for each other individually, but have decided to make a habit of praying together, because we care deeply for each other as friends, and because we both want to develop a greater comfort level in praying aloud.
Also, I picked up my parchment from the university today. I now officially have it in formal writing that I am the proud owner of a bachelor of arts in history. Whoo hoo!
I think those are the major things. I had some pretty weird dreams again on the weekend. So many of my dreams are so vivid and real. I have trouble distinguishing which ones are the spiritual ones that I need to pay close attention to, and which ones are simply the result of an overactive brain.
The heat's been getting to me - hard to sleep when you're melting in your bed. And I've missed our community... church was cancelled Sunday because of the long weekend, and then no one showed up tonight. I know that my spirituality has little to do with the events of a week, but I miss the chance to gather, to catch up on each other's lives, to worship and pray together when things are cancelled. So with that, I'm off to maybe do some paper journalling, and to do some reading... Drop me an email or leave me a comment updating me on all of your lives... Haven't heard from or seen some of you in quite a while...
So much for the discussion topic I'd prepared to lead us into sharing and praying. Oh well, maybe next time? Maybe I'll write up the topic and stick it up here for discussion sometime this week...
As to the week, the rest of it looks like it will be quite busy. I'm working the next several days in a row. I'm also meeting a friend on Thursday morning to catch up on each other's lives, and I have a job interview tomorrow morning. To be honest, I don't think I'm interested in the job because it doesn't pay enough, but the work sounds okay, so I thought I'd at least meet with the lady and try to get a bit better feel for the job. And I guess I'll use Friday afternoon to send out more resumes...
I had my first "driving standard" lesson yesterday. Megs is teaching me so I can drive at least part of the way on the road trip we're taking at the end of September. We spent the evening together, at a friend's birthday, and then having coffee, talking, and driving. We ended the evening by praying together. We've decided we need to do that consistently. We're always up to date on each other's lives, and we pray for each other individually, but have decided to make a habit of praying together, because we care deeply for each other as friends, and because we both want to develop a greater comfort level in praying aloud.
Also, I picked up my parchment from the university today. I now officially have it in formal writing that I am the proud owner of a bachelor of arts in history. Whoo hoo!
I think those are the major things. I had some pretty weird dreams again on the weekend. So many of my dreams are so vivid and real. I have trouble distinguishing which ones are the spiritual ones that I need to pay close attention to, and which ones are simply the result of an overactive brain.
The heat's been getting to me - hard to sleep when you're melting in your bed. And I've missed our community... church was cancelled Sunday because of the long weekend, and then no one showed up tonight. I know that my spirituality has little to do with the events of a week, but I miss the chance to gather, to catch up on each other's lives, to worship and pray together when things are cancelled. So with that, I'm off to maybe do some paper journalling, and to do some reading... Drop me an email or leave me a comment updating me on all of your lives... Haven't heard from or seen some of you in quite a while...
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Today
To be honest, today was a really good day in a lot of ways. It was long, but filled with people and things that I love.
I attended my dad's church this morning. That's always a little hard, because it's weird to not really be a visitor, but not really belong either. But, I really enjoyed the service today. There was a great worship time, and I enjoyed my dad's sermon on the character of Caleb. I think I'll go back and read a bit about him in the next few days (Caleb that is, not my dad!)
After church I joined my parents and a couple from their church for lunch at the local farmer's market. The guy has been a sort of mentor figure in my life for a long time, and I got the chance to talk with him a bit about some stuff that's come up in my life recently, and about some situations at church that I'm involved in and frustrated by. I love spending time with this couple and their five year old son - he's such a cutie, so smart and funny for a little kid.
After lunch, I fell asleep in an armchair in our living room, watching the classic version of the movie "Chitty Chitty Bang Bang" on CBC. I love those old musicals made for families, and I hadn't seen this one since I was a child. I regret falling asleep a bit, and missing the movie, but it was such a relaxing way to spend the afternoon.
Had Vietnamese take out for dinner in a park along the Elbow River with Megs, and then we came home and watched a movie until she had to head to work for her night shift a few minutes ago. We semi-cemented some plans for the future. It's looking like we might move in together sometime in February. So, as soon as I get a job, I'll start saving for a car, and hopefully by February, when Megs returns from Pakistan, I'll have a vehicle and be ready to move in with her. We're also planning a trip to BC together at the end of September - she has a family wedding to attend, and I've been hoping to spend some time with a couple of friends who are living in the Vancouver area.
God, give me peace. Thank you for the people and things you've laid on my heart over this weekend. Continue to reveal your heart to me over the course of this week. I long for deeper relationship with you. I'm in love with you. Guide in the situations of tension I find myself involved with at the moment. Present your clear hand and steps, and make my path known to me. Thank for the blessing of a day spent with family and friends, and the promise of the same tomorrow. Abba, I belong to you. I'm yours. Wherever and whatever you want. I'm there.
I attended my dad's church this morning. That's always a little hard, because it's weird to not really be a visitor, but not really belong either. But, I really enjoyed the service today. There was a great worship time, and I enjoyed my dad's sermon on the character of Caleb. I think I'll go back and read a bit about him in the next few days (Caleb that is, not my dad!)
After church I joined my parents and a couple from their church for lunch at the local farmer's market. The guy has been a sort of mentor figure in my life for a long time, and I got the chance to talk with him a bit about some stuff that's come up in my life recently, and about some situations at church that I'm involved in and frustrated by. I love spending time with this couple and their five year old son - he's such a cutie, so smart and funny for a little kid.
After lunch, I fell asleep in an armchair in our living room, watching the classic version of the movie "Chitty Chitty Bang Bang" on CBC. I love those old musicals made for families, and I hadn't seen this one since I was a child. I regret falling asleep a bit, and missing the movie, but it was such a relaxing way to spend the afternoon.
Had Vietnamese take out for dinner in a park along the Elbow River with Megs, and then we came home and watched a movie until she had to head to work for her night shift a few minutes ago. We semi-cemented some plans for the future. It's looking like we might move in together sometime in February. So, as soon as I get a job, I'll start saving for a car, and hopefully by February, when Megs returns from Pakistan, I'll have a vehicle and be ready to move in with her. We're also planning a trip to BC together at the end of September - she has a family wedding to attend, and I've been hoping to spend some time with a couple of friends who are living in the Vancouver area.
God, give me peace. Thank you for the people and things you've laid on my heart over this weekend. Continue to reveal your heart to me over the course of this week. I long for deeper relationship with you. I'm in love with you. Guide in the situations of tension I find myself involved with at the moment. Present your clear hand and steps, and make my path known to me. Thank for the blessing of a day spent with family and friends, and the promise of the same tomorrow. Abba, I belong to you. I'm yours. Wherever and whatever you want. I'm there.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Thoughts from Ignatius
I'll probably write a longer post sometime today or tomorrow, as lots of things are floating around my mind again this morning. But, in the meantime, I got this quote in an email this morning, and it challenged me, so I thought I'd pass it along...
It is not that I want merely to be called a Christian, but actually to be one. Yes, if I prove to be one, then I can have the name.—Ignatius of Antioch (35-120)
It is not that I want merely to be called a Christian, but actually to be one. Yes, if I prove to be one, then I can have the name.—Ignatius of Antioch (35-120)
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Sitting and Thinking
I'm a bit tired today, drained from a week that has thus far been quite busy. I'm a people person, and I tend to pour myself completely into whatever person I'm spending time with at any given moment.
I also need lots of time alone, but that time hasn't been as restful lately. I spend quite a lot of my alone time shut in my bedroom, away from my family. It feels a little like hiding or prison, but is so much smoother and easier than the stress of spending tons of time with them and feeling that I need to defend the choices I'm making in life. When I was sharing my situation at house church on Tuesday, one of the guys mentioned that his sister and her husband are in a similar situation, living with her husband's parents for a time. I've thought of them this week, and prayed for an easing of tension, a calmness and peace.
I spent a chunk of the morning with a friend who is off to China in about two weeks, and is off to facilitate a kids camp for the next ten days or so. We caught up on each others lives, and took advantage of what will be one of the last two times we'll see each other before she heads for China and then returns to her home in Langley directly after China. She's one of the people I'm hoping to spend some time with when I hopefully make a trip to the West Coast towards the end of September. We met on my trip to Mexico, and have been together fairly regularly since. I value her friendship and thoughts highly - she thinks deeply and loves God wholeheartedly.
I just finished reading a book by Chaim Potok titled "Davita's Harp". A beautiful story, that poses uncomfortable questions. I loved the depiction of the history, the religious tension, and so on. It left a sweet if somewhat unsatisfied taste.
I find myself fascinated again recently by Judaism, and the Jewishness of Jesus. The depth that is added to scripture by a strong understanding of Judaism, by studying the Old Testament using Jewish sources, by recognizing that Christ was shaped by and spoke initially to a culture that is not "Christian" is fascinating. Been listening to some sermons by Rob Bell, reading some of "Velvet Elvis" and reading Potok's work. All of these are increasing my fascination. I think one of my next reads will be "Wanderings: Chaim Potok's History of the Jews."
I'm also loving the prophetic books of scripture at the moment. Reading chunks of Isaiah, and planning to wade my way through Ezekiel and some of the minor prophets again. The first time I read through the entire Bible I fell in love with Ezekiel. Seems funny to me now, but I loved it. I continue to be captured by Isaiah 61 - the message of redemption promised. I feel myself being pulled ever deeper into the things of God, the things He is speaking, and I am anxiously excited for what He reveals. I hunger for His words, for knowledge and understanding of that which He is speaking, to see His hands moving and join Him in His works.
I'm off soon for a short work shift at the Bay this evening. Had a job interview yesterday, and a couple scheduled for tomorrow. Still waiting for something to be provided. Still waiting for complete release.
I also need lots of time alone, but that time hasn't been as restful lately. I spend quite a lot of my alone time shut in my bedroom, away from my family. It feels a little like hiding or prison, but is so much smoother and easier than the stress of spending tons of time with them and feeling that I need to defend the choices I'm making in life. When I was sharing my situation at house church on Tuesday, one of the guys mentioned that his sister and her husband are in a similar situation, living with her husband's parents for a time. I've thought of them this week, and prayed for an easing of tension, a calmness and peace.
I spent a chunk of the morning with a friend who is off to China in about two weeks, and is off to facilitate a kids camp for the next ten days or so. We caught up on each others lives, and took advantage of what will be one of the last two times we'll see each other before she heads for China and then returns to her home in Langley directly after China. She's one of the people I'm hoping to spend some time with when I hopefully make a trip to the West Coast towards the end of September. We met on my trip to Mexico, and have been together fairly regularly since. I value her friendship and thoughts highly - she thinks deeply and loves God wholeheartedly.
I just finished reading a book by Chaim Potok titled "Davita's Harp". A beautiful story, that poses uncomfortable questions. I loved the depiction of the history, the religious tension, and so on. It left a sweet if somewhat unsatisfied taste.
I find myself fascinated again recently by Judaism, and the Jewishness of Jesus. The depth that is added to scripture by a strong understanding of Judaism, by studying the Old Testament using Jewish sources, by recognizing that Christ was shaped by and spoke initially to a culture that is not "Christian" is fascinating. Been listening to some sermons by Rob Bell, reading some of "Velvet Elvis" and reading Potok's work. All of these are increasing my fascination. I think one of my next reads will be "Wanderings: Chaim Potok's History of the Jews."
I'm also loving the prophetic books of scripture at the moment. Reading chunks of Isaiah, and planning to wade my way through Ezekiel and some of the minor prophets again. The first time I read through the entire Bible I fell in love with Ezekiel. Seems funny to me now, but I loved it. I continue to be captured by Isaiah 61 - the message of redemption promised. I feel myself being pulled ever deeper into the things of God, the things He is speaking, and I am anxiously excited for what He reveals. I hunger for His words, for knowledge and understanding of that which He is speaking, to see His hands moving and join Him in His works.
I'm off soon for a short work shift at the Bay this evening. Had a job interview yesterday, and a couple scheduled for tomorrow. Still waiting for something to be provided. Still waiting for complete release.
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