Wednesday, June 02, 2010

I don't even have ducks...

While I was away, one of the stops we made was at a wonderful publishing house clearance bookstore in Grand Rapids.  While there I picked up a book by an author who has never yet steered me wrong.  Every book of his that I've read has been profound, and this one, which I read in the car on the remainder of the (long) drive home wasn't an exception.  This one was timely, too, as it's about finding one's calling, and, well, I'm unemployed and moving towards 30 years of age, and beginning to wonder if I shouldn't perhaps try to find a calling, or at the very least, a career, sometime soon.

In any case, I had the book with me today when I met a new friend for coffee.  After we'd shared a little of our lives with each other, I knew I had to share with her a passage I'd marked in the book.  (The book, by the way, is "The Echo Within" by Robert Benson.)  And then I had to laugh at how it's message was hitting me all over again too.

Benson writes:

I like my ducks in a row.  I like my t's crossed and my i's dotted.  I like, as the old revival song says, my old accounts to be settled.  I like for things to go the way we drew them up on the blackboard, to go according to plan, to be right on the money.

These are things I have to be careful about when I am trying to listen for the calling voice of God.  God does not seem to be particularly interested in whether or not my ducks stay in line.
(Benson, pg.141)

I had to laugh.  My calendar is quite literally blank.  All of the things I had planned are gone.  I like my ducks in a row.  I like the security of that.  Trouble is, right now, I don't even have ducks!


Jenny said...

Ah! I've been wanting to buy a Benson book since I first read about him on your blog a while ago. This might be the one to start with, unless you recommend another one?

Glad that you had a fun trip, and that book shop sounds like a dream!

Hope that you soon find your God-breathed calling.


Lisa said...

Jenny - this one would be a good one to start with. Or, his memoir type one, "Between the Dreaming and the Coming True."

Thanks for stopping in again!


Jenny said...

thanks Lisa, will put an order in for one of these.


Robert Benson said...


Thank you for reading my work in the first place and for sharing it with your friends. I am sitting in my studio this morning, with my ducks decidedly not in rows, and ended up grinning myself. Thanks for that, too.

Namaste —

R. Benson

Lisa said...

Mr. Benson,

Thanks for stopping by. I'm glad that you ended up grinning.

"The Echo Within" moved me deeply, and has shaped my thinking these last weeks, since very unexpectedly coming to an end of all things I had planned, and needing to pray and wait and listen for what is coming next, for what was spoken when I was created. I'm grateful to be able to say that in that quiet some things have emerged, and I remain quite surprised to have discovered all over again that it took the decided lack of ducks for that quiet to come to be, and for new things to begin to emerge.

Thanks for writing!

Namaste indeed.