Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 51

Today's Daily 5:

1. sunshine
2. a day in the mountains with mom's cousin, who I really enjoy
3. hiking up to Grassi Lakes and then appreciating the waterfall on the way back down
4. eating lunch at a tea shop I'd always wanted to eat at
5. driving home the back way
6. Vietnamese for dinner
7. sharing dinner with a long time friend
8. sarcasm and laughter over dinner and a walk and curling up in the basement at mom and dad's to keep talking and laughing
9. praying with a good friend too
10. laughing at an inadvertent discovery that a friend and I who bought the same scarf together were both wearing them in our separate cities today, and both thought of texting the other to tell them, but never quite got to it.  the random coincidence made me giggle.

Mountains

I'm leaving shortly to spend the day in the mountains with my mom's cousin.

Thanks to my lack of a car, I don't get to "my" mountains very often these days.  I'm not sure I've been there at all this summer, actually.

In any case, I'm looking forward to going back, to reclaiming some things that have felt lost or stolen.

To walking in a place I love with a person I enjoy.

It should be a good day.

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 50

Today's Daily 5:

1. 1 year, 50 days of making these lists
2. clicking send on an email containing a prayer request last night, and clicking back to my inbox to discover that another friend (without knowing any details, since she hadn't got the email yet) had already sent me a note containing some specific things she was praying for me.  It was such a "god timing" moment, and made me feel very loved and seen, and made me cry to know that even before I could ask, someone was lifting me up in prayer
3. getting some sleep last night, even if it did come with some hard dreams.  sometimes the dreams distract me from the fact that with treatments and some supplements helping, I do generally get at least 4 hours of sleep a night, and that, in the years I struggled so deeply with depression, I would have considered four hours of sleep in a row an absolute miracle.
4. going for a long walk in the autumn air with my mom's cousin who I really enjoy
5. 2 Corinthians 4:16 in the Message
6. laughing over a joke about palm trees and the fact that I live someplace sadly lacking in them
7. discovering that the final transcript I'd ordered for my pending university application had actually arrived as requested.
8. a decent treatment tonight
9. reading a powerful essay that a friend sent to me, that was highly applicable to this point in my life.

A Quick Update

A week or so ago I posted a prayer request for baby Ewan, son of Kirsten (a blog connection of mine) and James.

A few minutes ago I read this post.  It's a powerful read.

Kirsten and James said goodbye to Ewan Eliezer last night.

My heart is heavy for them today.

Please join me in praying with them as they walk out this new journey of grieving.

No Words, Really

I've been staring at a blank post for a while.

Not quite sure what to say.

Last night had some hard dreams again.  Sleep is a bit of a juggling act right now.  If I go to bed early, I tend to spend several of the early mornings hours laying awake and pondering.  If I say up late, I tend to sleep later in the morning, but have intense dreams.

I don't know what to say.

I'm tired of the sleeping problems, of having to pick between melancholy early morning hours, or painful dreams.