Lazy Mornings

I'm still working to sort out some health stuff, and more than anything, it's leading to a lack of energy and long lazy mornings in bed.

Yesterday I got up early to meet a friend for breakfast, and after I was dropped off back at home ended up crawling back into bed immediately to nap for another couple of hours.

It's been a week for internal wrestles, and processing in a more private forum than this blog.

And a week for lazy mornings.  Eating, doing email, reading, writing and sleeping.

I'm thankful that I have time for that right now, that my life is in a place that allows for lazy mornings.

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 280

Today's Daily 5:

1. rain sounds against the bus shelter
2. hot tea
3. a tasty muffin at a local cafe
4. sharing breakfast and tea with a friend who knows my history
5. seat warmers in a car
6. tiny sprouts appearing in my garden where I planted seeds
7. candles lit all around my room
8. Watching favorite television (episodes of M*A*S*H* and the season premiere of The Bachelorette)
9. Sheep wool slippers
10. 1 year, 280 days of making daily 5 lists

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 279

Today's Daily 5:

1. a banana for breakfast
2. Sunday morning home alone
3. strawberry smoothie
4. M*A*S*H* T-shirt
5. watching a robin in the back yard
6. planting flowers and herbs in my garden
7. the first shower in a freshly cleaned bathroom
8. crossing everything that needed to be done today off my list
9. eating frozen chocolate chip cookies
10. the smell of chlorine in cleaning products, that always reminds me of hours spent in the swimming pool as a kid
11. putting on pajamas still warm from the dryer
12. freshly painted finger and toe nails (I went with a deep pink for the toes this time)
13. Coconut body butter

Daily 5 - Year 2, Day 278

For the first time in ages, last night I totally forgot to transfer my Daily 5 list from my phone to this space.  So, here's yesterday's Daily 5:

1. Lunch on a patio in the sun
2. Sweet chili chicken from Joey's
3. an Almond Joy bar
4. One of those rare days where I felt pretty, with minimal effort
5. watching and transcribing the monologues from the last two episodes of Grey's Anatomy
6. An evening at home alone, watching the Food Network
7. Eating a comfort meal
8. getting a call from a friend that offered just a bit of hope for restoring the data on my external harddrive
9. a hot shower
10. getting a couple errands finished

Mismatched

Do you ever have days where your insides just don't match your outsides, or am I the only one?

I'm having that kind of day today.

For the first time in a while, I feel like I look good, and it was an effortless fluke.

I'm wearing clothes I love, a great scarf and earrings, and somehow, even though all I did was shower and then finger comb my hair back into a ponytail on my way out the door, even that is working for me today.  I feel pretty, and pulled together on the outside anyway.

Inside?  Totally a neurotic mess.

I'm obsessing over a decision I have to make, and a maybe even a few I have already made.

I've worried about some health stuff.

I've spent quite a bit of time dealing with a minor computer disaster that happened late Thursday night which may still result in the loss of all the photos I've taken in the last five years, and a good chunk of my music library.

I look good on the outside (which, by the way, is totally a feeling that I'm celebrating!) but I'm totally a mess on the inside, and I'm thinking about the way that inside and outside don't often seem to match. 

I'm okay, I really am, just pondering the juxtaposition of moods and experiences going on in me today.

So tell me, am I the only one who often feels mismatched?