Saturday, May 21, 2011


Do you ever have days where your insides just don't match your outsides, or am I the only one?

I'm having that kind of day today.

For the first time in a while, I feel like I look good, and it was an effortless fluke.

I'm wearing clothes I love, a great scarf and earrings, and somehow, even though all I did was shower and then finger comb my hair back into a ponytail on my way out the door, even that is working for me today.  I feel pretty, and pulled together on the outside anyway.

Inside?  Totally a neurotic mess.

I'm obsessing over a decision I have to make, and a maybe even a few I have already made.

I've worried about some health stuff.

I've spent quite a bit of time dealing with a minor computer disaster that happened late Thursday night which may still result in the loss of all the photos I've taken in the last five years, and a good chunk of my music library.

I look good on the outside (which, by the way, is totally a feeling that I'm celebrating!) but I'm totally a mess on the inside, and I'm thinking about the way that inside and outside don't often seem to match. 

I'm okay, I really am, just pondering the juxtaposition of moods and experiences going on in me today.

So tell me, am I the only one who often feels mismatched?


Amy Nabors said...

No. You're not the only one. I feel this way most days. Even at 37 years old I still struggle to feel comfortable in my own skin.

Lisa said...

mmm... glad to hear I'm not the only one!

Natalie said...

I think a good portion of the population has felt as you did today. :)

Lisa said...

Thanks Nat :)