Random Wednesday Thoughts

Allergy season is in full bloom, and I’m sneezing my days away, dealing with itchy eyes and a stuffy nose, and (almost – not really) wishing for the calmer days of winter. Though that may not actually be that far away – they’re predicting that we’ll get snow again sometime in the next few days…

I’m having one of those fuzzy headed, tired, gray sort of days. I can’t wait until the work day ends and I can go home.

I’m cooking dinner at home tonight. It was a mother’s day gift for my mom. I told her I’d cook once a week between mother’s day and when my parents leave for Ukraine (June 4th – approximately 3 times cooking). I think I’m making a sort of Vietnamese dish tonight, rice vermicelli, with chicken and vegetables overtop, and either fish sauce or a ginger sauce. Quick to make, easy, and tastes pretty good. The most time consuming part is chopping the veggies. I just called home and reminded mom to take the chicken out of the freezer so that it thaws and cooks more quickly when I get home after work.

After that, maybe a trip to the library, or maybe just relaxing and watching television or a movie. A bit of reading may be in order, and sending some emails will probably get done too. And I have to proof a friend’s resume.

My back has stiffened up again. It seemed to have gotten better over the weekend, but in the last day it has tightened right back into a number of knots. The trouble this time is that I know that this is strongly related to some emotional/spiritual stuff, but I’m not sure how to release that stuff so that it stops plaguing my body.

I’ve never been good at just crying. Some people I know can just have a good cry and let it out. I need something to trigger the tears, and even then, they rarely last very long…

We’ll see… things seem to have gone underground again… maybe waiting for the right opportunity to surface. Self-examination seems to help – writing update type notes to the friends whom I really trust, and forcing myself to honestly evaluate where I’m at in various places in life tends to be helpful in releasing emotional tension. And since I need to write at least a couple of those emails this week, maybe I’ll try that!

Okay, well, I still don’t have anything to do here at work, but I guess I’ll go back to trying to find something to do!

See you later!